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A young monk was sent to meditate alone in a cave. He meditated for ten years, and developed all kinds of mystical powers: he could fly through the air, he could become invisible, he could dip under the earth, and so-forth. After ten years he returned to his master.

“Master, see what I have learned.” He proceeded to show the master all of his exotic powers.

The master frowned. “You’ve missed the point. Go back to the cave and start again.”

~ Taoist story

There are several reasons why I keep this blog or journal. I want to hold on to certain memories that as time passes would be easy to forget. I also want to remember teaching experiences I have had with my horses. Every 3-4 months, I swiffer the blog, cleaning up past entries, deleting ones that I feel are too insignificant to keep, checking links and photos etc… and when I have time re-read certain Guide-posts which were turning points.

I’m struck again by the circular path, in and out, through the Labyrinth, where knowledge is slowly accumulated, put into place, forgotten and then re-learned.

Last week, I had a moving experience with Z that I wasn’t ready yet to share with you. However, that experience generated a lot of creative posts about the inner nature of horses, their meanings to us in a spiritual sense, and how we come to grips or not with those lessons.

This Saturday, that moment of magic was lost. I felf myself sliding back into a mindset of NOWWWWW!!!! Z was only interested in chomping green grass and didn’t seem to realize she was supposed to provide magic upon demand like a vending machine.

argh….

Why isn’t the path to enlightenment easy???

It’s really, really irritating that it isn’t. <pout>

“The simplicity of your character makes you exquisitely incomprehensible to me,” ~ Gwendolen, The Importance of Being Earnest.

More riding today of Z. We are doing some very basic stuff that is all about laying a foundation for the future. While I’m thinking of this for the future, I cannot train in the present as if I’m in the future already… I have to be present where Z is at this moment.

An interesting tool in Molly’s toolkit is this one: Z started questioning her today, by moving crookedly in the roundpen. At one point her nose would go into the panel or then her bend would be the butt into the panel. If you were to try to bend the horse with the bridle or use leg to straighten the horse, this gives the horse more to work against and can cause bracing.

Instead, Molly switched things up and just let Z go on a loose rein, making a choice where to go, but she had to keep trotting. When the hand or leg is removed and the horse moves off on their own there is nothing to work against and they readjust themselves. This took a while, but eventually Z gave up and started moving straight again.

I want to remember this for if we get sticky during my rides to just let her go for awhile and think it out. This takes a bit of courage on the riders’ part as it goes against our belief that we must have control over the horses’ face through pressure on the bridle.

When Z stops she doesn’t do it square. Often her back end is spraddled out further then optimum balance. I want her to learn to stop more under self.

Dorrance (True Horsemanship) has a horse back up by putting the nose over the front leg which he wants to move backwards. With Mark Russell (Lightness), I want the horse to bend the nose slightly to one side and then the other, with the goal of the horse stretching forward and down to loosen the poll, axis, neck and spine.

As I asked for this bending side to side at a halt, I wanted her to shift herself and get those hind legs in a better place. I kept thinking back, when I needed to let it happen without the backward pull.

Suddenly, I got a response – when I bended her to the left (and we are talking about a very small bend) I lengthened my left leg, bent her to the right, lengthened my right leg, and she became square. I’m calling this a “bellydance with the spine.” :D

These are the small increments of changes I’m looking for. I’ll have to play with this and see how my body can help her achieve that balance.

One thing that people are often unaware of, is that riding and working with your horse will bring up a lot of emotional upheaval that doesn’t necessarily pertain to the riding.

When I left Molly’s the other day I was emotionally drained. Physically, I felt like I had been run over by a Mack truck and that was only due to some basic walking! Most of the *crap* I felt was actually due to what has happened to me over the last two years. There has been some serious stuff which I have not, and won’t, be blogging about here as it has nothing to do with horses except that when you have been living with some of the burdens I have on my shoulders – riding reveals it.

It’s why Klaus Hempfling tries to get people to understand that the horse will mirror your internal life. It’s more then “being confident around horses” or “showing them you mean business.” Whatever has been going on in your life – with your human relationships, your job, your education, your spiritual journey, your health etc… the horse will make you face.

This can come back as a surprising slap in the face. It can also abruptly turn people away from taking the horse path – as I’ve seen teaching some horseback riding lessons to folks who weren’t ready to deal with the emotional pain they had secreted away.

The process of horses stripping the emotional defenses also came up years back during the Centered Riding clinic I had attended for a week. The Facilitator had talked to me privately about how, during CR clinics, people can become seemingly more emotional then the situation warrants. And this clinic was full of some spectacular bull – with an out of a control horse being ridden by a severally handicapped young woman who refused to admit that the horse was too much for her to handle – even when he broke lose from being tied to the trailer and ran across the dressage arena or when he dumped her on the ground (a first for our CR instructor during a CR clinic).

I saw the same thing happening to me and others during the week long TEAM (Linda Tellington-Jones) clinic I had attended. Of course, I knew my own emotional limits: certain types of people piss me off so I stayed away from one person, and the emotional turmoil I have during hormonal fluxes. OTOH, the person who owned the three, supposedly out of control horses (they weren’t), who cried at the drop of a hat really needed a therapist and not two TEAM instructors holding her hand for the week.

It’s easy for people to say, “oh you are upset because you are afraid of falling- the horse going to fast – the canter – losing your balance etc…” because those can be legit concerns depending on the horse and the rider. However, what people (who are surface thinkers) don’t understand is that riding and interaction with your horse digs deep into your psyche.

While I didn’t go home crying my eyes out, I also knew that the exhaustion I felt over the next 48 hours was due to letting down my guard and forcing myself through. Sometimes you have to cry – feel exhausted – feel drop dead tired as if you’ve run a marathon, because your body has just released a lot of held tension: emotionally and spiritually. Afterwards the body can feel even refreshed and today I was more positive and uplifted about riding Z then ever.

Today, was a short but great ride on Z. I felt more comfortable with her and willing to relax and trust her more. Some of the physical tightness in my body has to be reminded to release but I am more ready to let that happen now.

I’m eager to keep going and will ride Monday, Wednesday and Thursday, with her moving to her new home on Friday.

About 10 years ago – maybe more, I decided to take my horsemanship down a different path. My interests aren’t the same of many and that is okay. But it does make it hard to find a direction and steps to achieve my goal as becoming a working student under someone like Klaus Hempfling is not going to happen.

One of the exercises I have been experimenting with is inspired by some of Klaus Hempfling. Because of some posts I received on my YouTube account, I feel it necessary whenever I post something about Hempfling to clarify that I am not trained or endorsed by him – my only inspiration is through his books and videos. I don’t sell/market myself as a Hempfling trainer or take money so get off my back about it…

Now, okay, that I’ve got that off my chest…

From reading Dancing again and trying to deconstruct elements of what Hempfling does, I realized that I needed to be moving slower and become more focused.

The first time I tried this was with Z in the roundpen. I used my long cotton rope attached to the halter and started by facing her keeping a distance of about 3-5 feet away. The first part of the encounter was for her to initiate movement which I would follow with my hand. We spent the first 10 minutes with me following her – not behind her, but in front, mirroring her direction.

If she moved to the left, then I moved to the right. If she approached me, I backed away to keep an equal distance. If she stopped and didn’t move, I stood still.

What became interesting was Z’s responses. She could tell something was happening – that our interaction was unique. As the minutes passed she became more and more interested in what I was doing and our interaction became even smoother and quicker.

About 10 minutes into it when she was clearly very interested, I started initiating movement and asked her to follow me. When I moved the hand holding the rope to the right, I was looking for her head to bend to the left. When I took a step backward, I wanted her to approach me.

This is all hard to write about because it was truly a “feeling” – when I described to hubby, who was watching, how exciting it was, he really couldn’t see what was going on. While in the trenches it was the most intense, training experience I’ve had with a horse for years.

It took a lot of concentration and actually was quite exhausting for such short work.

I also did Dee but figured since we didn’t have as close a connection, I wouldn’t see as startling a result. That day I didn’t but a few weeks later, I tried again and she was even smoother and more connected then Z! Wow!

Sidenote: I’m feeling much better today, just easily tired. Will take a shower and then entice hubby to leave that nice warm bed where he is snoozing.

After reading Gallop to Freedom (Pignon) it got me thinking about using more mimicking play in my work with the horses. Pignon writes about how he will experiment with imitating the horses to see how they respond. While I’ve done a bit with my horses, I’ve never had a lot of success.

Which got me to thinking about Eric Cussons and how he behaves when interacting with the chimps he rescues and installs in the Jane Goodall Chimp Eden sanctary.

Some things before I discuss Eric’s work. First, I am not a fan of chimps. They actually are my least favorite animal. While I’m not a fan I do not support anyone abusing these animals or “making” them foster children. They deserve to live like nature intended and are not “tame” in any sense of the word.

If you watch this show enough, you know that secondly chimps are extremely dangerous. An adult chimp has the strength of 5-7 men; your arm could be ripped off, and indeed, the head manager of the facility is missing fingers due to an incident.

Yes, indeed, these are no “pets” and a horrible chimp attack in the U.S. (don’t read the article unless  you have a strong stomach) should prove that these animals need to be under the management of trained personnel in an enclosure suited to their emotional and physical needs.

However, let’s get back full circle to how this applies to horses, training and me…

After thinking about the shows I’ve watched of Eric interacting with the chimps, I realized that perhaps I was not exaggerating my vocalizations, expressions and body language enough. Indeed, in Klaus Hempflings’ Dancing with Horses, you can see by the photos and video that Hempfling has strong and emphatic body language.

Let me be clear that I do not mean actions that would alarm the horse into flight or fight behavior. That is where the gauge of treating each horse uniquely comes into it: Z may need more “loud” requests; Dee and T-man need substantially less.

I’ve been experimenting with Z and Dee these last two weeks. If you are sharp you can catch it in the videos I’ve done recently.

When a horse exhales, I blow out – loudly and audibly.

When a horse snorts, I snort and blow out a deep breath.

When a horse flutters their lips with an exhale or snort, I ****brrrrrr*** my mouth with an exhale.

If their head lowers, I lower my head.

While I do have the horses copy me when walking or trotting, I’ve noticed that I need to make my transition into a stop much more dramatic for a horse response.

It’s been interesting and the results have been fascinating. Z knows that something is definitely up. She has almost a *shocked*WTF?*alert*are you crazy?* look on her face when I do it. She locks onto me immediately and will often repeat what I’ve done.

You can observe this same behavior in horse groups. One horse drops and rolls. Then another, then a third. It goes through the herd like a ripple. If you are really paying attention the same thing happens for fly swatting, snorting, or even drinking water – one horse starts, another copies.

One of the points of encouraging snorting and blowing, is this is a sign the horse is relaxing. A horse that blows or snorts, will automatically lower their head (perhaps it’s to just blow out the sinuses?) and his body structure relaxes.

This returns to the idea of teaching head down. If a horse has the head lowered, he would be relaxed. Ergo, a tense horse should lower the head to change the mental state which changes the physical state.

As we are blowing and snorting, mimicking each other, the horse becomes more relaxed, imitating me as if I’m a member of their herd family who is communicating to them that everything is cool and groovy.

However, it does make for a funny time at the barn…